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had almost an inch of lace on the hem. Oh dear, I was happy. It was really mine! I bought it with my own money! For me! I'd be the first person to wear it! All these things went through my mind over and over again all the way back to the ranch. After supper that night I told my folks I was really tired tonight and thought I'd go to bed right away, They locked at me like I was crazy because I usually went to town almost every night since I bought my own "old" car and I sel- dom got in before at least 9 o'clock. Mom right away thought I must be sick. I told her I wasn't sick, just tired.

I just couldn't wait to get into my new satin slip. I got to my room and undressed. I unwrapped the slip. Just looking at it as I unwrapped it thrilled me no end. I buried my face in the shimmering satin--I think I almost cried with joy. Again I thought about how it was all mine--the first to wear it--the first slip I ever bought. Then I put it on

Oh how wonderful, I caressed my body through it so hard and so long that it just clung to me with static electricity. I was in ecstasy. I wore that slip every night for the next year and a half till I went into the Service.

I was going with girls and having relations with those that were willing but I didn't think that I enjoyed such ac- tivities as much as I should or as much as other fellows seem- ed to. I started to wonder if I was gay. Well one weekend I told my folks I was going to drive down to San Francisco and would stay at my grandmothers over night. I never got to her house but fooled around down town all day. I wasn t old enough to buy beer but sometimes if I went in and spoke up like I owned the place they would serve me. In this way I had quite a few that evening till I struck a place where the bartender told me to get the heck out and come back in about 5 years. I left the place and another fellow left at the same time and followed me down the street. He caught up with me and told me he knew a place where they didnt ask your age. I said let's go there and we did. I was pretty well plaster- ed before I realized he was gay. He asked me to go home with him. I thought to myself--"Nuts, I don't have complete plea- sure with girls and I'm not like other guys anyway because I